Although I’ve decided to do some work every day, I’m finding it hard to actually get down to it. I’m usually very disciplined and work quite a bit, but with no events scheduled for the forseeable future, and almost no online business, the drive just isn’t there. Right now I’m spending time obsessing over jigsaw puzzles rather than try to boost my online sales. So many of the events and things I was looking forward to have been canceled or postponed, it can be hard to stay positive and in the moment. I’m used to working at home, so my daily routine isn’t much changed. I’m up early and working by 8:30, lunch break and sitting outside if the weather permits, more work and then whatever with my husband. Some days I go into the city.

I’m very worried about my business. Events are my main source of income, with a sprinkling of online sales. My work is all about the texture and lightness of the jewelry, so my online sales are usually from people who have seen the work in person. When will we be able to have events again?

Will more people remain working remotely because the recession will close offices? Does that mean events could be more important and draw more people as a way to get out? And the recession – jewelry isn’t a necessity, and probably one of the first items folks will stop buying. All the artist/craftspeople will suffer. So many are self-employed.

I’m trying to practice radical acceptance, with practice being the key word.

In the meantime I’ll be making items with a lower price point, offering sales on existing items and praying. I’ll also be looking into additional online platforms to supplement my website and Etsy shop.

I have to say I’m not fond of online meetings and conversations, but I’m trying to accept that that’s the way things are right now, and it’s just for right now. I’m trying to practice radical acceptance, with practice being the key word. These draconian measures aren’t going to go on forever. I have to hope that this will pass sooner rather than later.

I have a lot to be grateful for, and I’m mentally listing some of them several times a day, it helps. I might even start journaling – the unstructured fun kind, with drawings, pictures and random musings.

It also helps to see we’re not alone – 8 million others are going through this in NYC alone, and zillions worldwide. I feel like the lack of connection could be dangerous for me. Depression and anxiety are nurtured by isolation. Community is so important. Our collective is more important now than ever. I’m talking on the phone and emailing with a few other members, and trying to think of other ways to stay connected and help in some way.

I’m looking forward to reading everyone’s comments and experience.

Andi B O'Connor is a NYHC Member that crochets silver jewelry. Visit Billoware Jewelry here.